Sunday, August 29, 2010

dont speak

Shh..
Don't speak
You've broken my heart
With one word
With two
I'm sure that I'll shatter
I gave you
Love and attention
I listened to you
Whenever you needed
I loved you
For as long as I could remember
But obviously
It was all for nothing
You didn't love me
You never did
You played with me
Then threw me away
And now
I can hear a voice
Your voice
Running through my mind
The way you would talk
Sweet little nothings
And now
I wish I still had you

always dusk

- You ugly bitch, move! - I said with that need just to slap her on the face.
She looked up with those profound mossy-green eyes and moved slowly. She didn’t even say one thing, not a single word, just did what I asked. A shade of agony passed quickly right through that gaze but she hid it rapidly.
It’s frustrated! She keeps messing with my mind, with all my emotions. Ugh!
- Shane! - I heard Miki calling me from behind. She cuddled me on her skinny arms and glared Kim.
- Hello freak!
Again not a word! Just “the look”! Somehow evil, but yet with pain! I needed to touch her now. She was like a magnet, pulling me closer and closer.
I grabbed her arm and dragged her near me.
- Why don’t you talk ugly?!
Her hot breath crashed on my face. Delicious! Mouthwatering! I wonder what she tastes like. Fuck! What the hell am I thinking? I shook my head in shock.
- Shane, just leave her honey!
But I don’t want to. Her skin was so smooth and warm. Shane man, you are so fucked; liking the emo freak.
- Let go of me!
That voice. So deep, so dark, so everything! What’s happening to me?!
She came to our school this year. I always see her on the lobby or detention. She’s constantly there. But…she never fights back. She never says a word. Nothing! I’m going insane. That look of hers is like earthquake, it trembles my world over and over. That attitude is so intriguing, like the Da Vinci’s code. It takes a lot of effort to decipher it. The usual bruises on her face or arms, like an invitation to the horror story she’s living. Those breathe of her, feeding me with my own personal oxygen. That silky skin; a warning to the other guys who will touch her. I’m gone break your bones one by one.
- Shane! - Miki called bewildered.
Yeah, I was leaning close to Kim. That’s not good. Even she was a bit scared.
- Sorry! I… I have to go.
And u ran as a dumbass. I almost kissed the girl and terrified her. 1

Have you ever heard of a stalker? Well, here you have him. 
She was walking quietly, her steps small and thoughtful. Her features amazing, she looked as a perfect moving statue. And the melancholic sculpture stopped.
- Why are you here?
A punch right on my face guys! A kick on my soft place! That’s the effect of her words. She knew I was following her?! And she didn’t say anything?! Why?!
It was my time to stay silent. But my legs didn’t though. They walked instinctively to her.
- Hi!
Oh my god, I’m so stupid! Can’t I find a better word??? Ugh!
- What do you want?
- Nothing! I just…
- You just lost the road right?!
Ugh! Don’t piss me off girl. Something inside moved. I grabbed her face and pulled it to mine. Again the honey smell. It sets me on fire! Honey flames guys! And then…
- Kim! What are you doing?
She turned her head. A tall cute woman stood in front of her hugged with this buff dude. People like him give certify the hypothesis that our origin comes from monkeys.
- You having fun honey?! - She asked with the evil smile engraved on her face. - Finally my daughter understands a woman’s need.
- I don’t go fuck everyone for money dear mom.
A flat sound, came when she slapped her!
- You little slut, don’t try to act the innocent little girl. I’ll make sure that Max here shows you how to act with your mom. Right Max?!
He nodded.
How did my world become so silent?!
Is that what’s happening to her. Her gaze, now sorrowful watched till her mom’s shade disappeared. Then… no more that I-don’t-give-a -shit look. Hot tears rolled on her chubby cheeks. My arms impulsively embraced her from behind. I rested my head on her shoulders and pressed my lips on neck. My lungs fill up with the delicious honey aroma. And then, as my brain had no more power at controlling me I whispered on her ear automatically those words that I made up long time ago.
- Tell me about your story! I won’t make fun.
Tell me about your secret! I’ll be silence as the tomb.
Tell me about your pain! I’ll take it on my shoulders.
Tell me about those who hurt you! I’ll fucking kill them all.
Tell me about your inner demon! I promise I’ll make him go away.
Tell me you like me! I’ll tell you I love you.
Tell me you’ll be always here! I will never leave you.
Tell me you’ll leave me and I’m being stupid! I’ll fade away because I can’t take your rejection.
Is that enough for you to trust me?
- I’m scared, - she murmured.
- Tell me why.
- I’m scared of the night because she’ll bring in my room my terror.
- It’s still twilight.
She sobbed on my shoulder. Her warm liquid tears warmed my skin.
- What does that mean?
- I won’t let the darkness come. I’ll keep it always dusk for you.
I could feel her smile lighten up. That’s all I need.

sAd sTory aBout Razak Love

Cerita sedih sepasang kekasih

sedih giler tu......pastikan tisu berada di sisi anda...
Tersebut al-kisah 2 insan bercinta... yg laki tu nama Razak,
yg pompuan tu nama Fatimah. Razak ni panggil fatimah ni
sebagai 'imah' je (nak kasi nampak manje le tuh). imah
ni lak panggil razak ni 'abang' je cos diorang ni dah
close, lagi pun razak ni lagi tua drpd imah 4 tahun.
Entah macam mana, diorang ni kena berpisah dlm jangka
masa 3 tahun. Razak tu kena gi UK . lama gak tuh...
Imah ni kesepian le kat Singapura.
Since dah pisah lama gak.. then imah boring dok umah sorang
...Ada lak mamat yg bernama kamarul dtg jumpa imah. mula2
imah dgn kamarul ni kawan je, kamarul ajak gi shopping, gi
makan satay, gi bowling. Entah macam mana, hati imah
ni dah terpaut lak kat kamarul nih... maka hilang la bayang2
razak drpd hati imah..

Setelah genap 3 tahun.. razak pun pulang ke singapura. Beria2 le
mamat nih nak jumpa imah. belum sempat nak call imah, razak
ternampak imah dgn kamarul tengah date kat tengah2 town.
maka berderai le jiwa raga razak.. sedih je mamat tuh...
tak lalu makan. at the same time.. imah dok jalan2...
sembang le dgn kawan2 dia.. ntah camna dia dpt tahu kamarul
tu laki org. imah pun peras..cuba nak kembali kepada razak.
Masa tu dia lom tau lagi razak ni dah balik singapura.

Razak pun memberanikan diri dia... jumpa imah. dia gi le rumah
imah. muka razak masam je.. imah tanya le apasal masam.
razak cakap.."susah lah.. aku dah tau apa yang ko buat
masa sepeninggalanku" imah terperanjat... "err bila masa
lak nih.. aku setia apa..." kata imah razak berkata...
tersedu2.. " Aku sudah tau perhubunganmu dgn dgn kamarul
..." imah terdiam... "tamat lah hubungan kita disini sahaja
..." tambah razak. Razak amik gitar kapuk yg dibeli drpd UK
tu......seraya berkata " dengarlah lagu ini..., khas untuk mu..."
razak start nyanyi sambil menatap wajah sedih imah yg sedang
menangis...

I can tell by your eyes
That you've probably been crying forever
And the stars in the sky
Don't mean nothing to you
They're a mirror
I don't wanna talk about it
How you broke my heart
If I stay here just a little bit longer
If I stay here won't you listen
To my heart, ohhh, my heart

imah terdiam... masih menangis....razak sambung...

If I stand all alone
Will the shadows hide the colours of my heart
Blue for the fears
Black for the night's fears
The stars in the sky
Don't mean nothing to you
> They're a mirror

I don't wanna talk about it
How you broke my heart
If I stay here just a little bit longer
If I stay here won't you listen
To my heart, ohhh, my heart

"suara razak terus mendayu2....

"My heart, oh my heart, this old heart........."
"I don't wanna to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
But if I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen
to my heart, oh, my heart? My heart, oh, my heart!"

razak ulangi phrase yg sama.......imah terdiam...walaupun
air mata masih mengalir...

My heart, oh my heart, this old heart........."
"I don't wanna to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
But if I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, oh, my heart?
My heart, oh, my heart!"

setelah tamat lagu yang dinyanyikan oleh razak untuk imah itu...
tiba2 mulut imah berkata ... " abang, imah nak beritahu
abang sesuatu" "katakan lah duhai imah" jawap razak dengan
suara perlahan... " err...... err..." kata imah dlm keadaan
bersalah..."katakan lah .. katakan lah imah.. abang sanggup
terima..." tambah razak...perlahan2.. imah berkata

"abang..."
"sebenarnya... imah tak paham bahasa Inggeris..."